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Over my first few posts, I’ve looked at how faith has been a struggle for me, but how I’ve ultimately come down strongly on the side of believing in the truth of Christianity and some of the reasons for that decision, as well as explaining the concept of faith. Over the next few weeks, I want to examine some of the reasons for faith that I listed in my initial post, and give a little more detail about them.

The first topic I want to address is the topic of science and faith, although to be precise, I am referring far more to the debate about the origins of humanity – evolution and creation. I dare say that virtually all of us are fine with science when we’re talking about repeatable events and technology in our life (as in, we all agree that science has a method and it produces results that we can acknowledge as valid). But the matter of origins is a different one, because it can’t be repeated and most of the evidence is circumstantial or based on speculation. This has been a topic of significant interest to me for years, and one that gets a lot of attention in our North American society. But before I even touch on anything remotely scientific, I think that there are a few details we need to examine so that we can approach this topic reasonably instead of fanatically. So, here are a few things I want you to think about before we dive into the scientific (and later, Biblical) details.

How qualified are you?

The obvious first question for us to ask is, how qualified are we to deal with scientific matters? Let’s be honest, the field of science is a vast and hugely technical one, and most of us aren’t qualified to weigh and assess the different arguments. For example, where would you rate yourself on the following scale?

1. Virtually no scientific knowledge. Don’t know, don’t care.
2. I can answer basic questions, don’t mind science
3. I enjoy science and research questions that I have
4. I love science, study it hard, and (likely) have a science degree and job
5. I am an expert in at least one scientific field and informed in others

I would put myself firmly in group 3, and have been tempted at times to pursue a degree or career in science, but life has taken me other directions. I would guess that the vast majority of people fit into groups 1-3, and only a small percentage make it to group 5. This makes it very difficult to have a strong, studied opinion. It’s not impossible to be informed, but we run the risk of holding strong opinions that are, quite simply, wrong.

Quantity of Information

Another challenge facing us “average” people is the sheer quantity of information available to us in our society. There is a reason that this is called the information age. The amount of research that is available to us at any given moment is staggering. A quick Google search on “ human origins” came up with 18 million articles! While obviously a lot of those results would go in completely different directions than just scientific knowledge, and much of the information would be repeated, it still highlights the fact that there is too much information for any one person to know it all. The average person is bombarded with conflicting viewpoints and has very little ability to discern which are credible, and which are pure nonsense. Which leads to another problem:

Disagreement in the Research

There are a lot of very smart people in this world. Many of them are scientists who have devoted their lives to research and study scientific issues, and in particular, issues related to the origins of the world and humanity. But the reality is, they don’t agree with each other. If you have ever watched a debate between scientists with differing points of views, it becomes evident very quickly that there is significant disagreement about which studies or science is accurate and valid, which sources are credible, and even the definitions of many of the concepts that are being debated. The so-called average person is left struggling to know what is most significant and who is performing a slight-of-hand.

Another source of confusion is the shifting of scientists from one school of thought to another. While there are many variations of beliefs regarding origins, as a Christian I notice four different groups that jump out. There are the atheists and/or naturalists who believe that everything has a natural cause and that God doesn’t exist or at least doesn’t participate in creation and our world at all. Then there are Christians that fit into three different categories: Those who believe in God but believe that he created the world through natural means (theistic evolution, such as that espoused by BioLogos); those who believe that he interceded supernaturally and directed the evolutionary process (Intelligent Design such as the Discovery Institute); and those who believe that God created the world in six literal days as laid out in the Bible (Young-Earth Creationists such as the Institute for Creation Research). Note: I point to these organizations and web pages only as examples of each view. Explore them or others at your leisure to get an idea of the different views.

Each of these different viewpoints can claim scientists who are considered experts in their fields (doctorates, professors, researchers, etc.). And each group holds people who were “led by the evidence” to move from one set of beliefs to another. There are atheists who used to be Christians but scientific study led them to abandon their belief in God. But there are also atheists who have become Christians and joined one of the Christian camps and who were led that way by the science that they were studying. And there are Young Earth Creationists who have become Intelligent Designers, who have become Evolutionary Theists, and so on. Who knows how many people have moved from one camp to another, or if one is more common than another? So ultimately, we’re left with a bunch of different scientists, usually very intelligent people dedicated to their science, who can’t agree on how things got started. And if they can’t agree or even make up their own mind, why do we think that we can provide all the answers to the questions of our origins?

The lie of objectivity

This brings up a point that many mention regarding Christians who are scientists. The argument is that because the Christian believes in God and the Bible “by faith”, this means that they are reading their own beliefs into their research and are not objective. First off, I would just like to remind you of what I just pointed out – that many scientists have become Christians because of the science that they are studying, not in spite of it. Science influenced and led them to change their beliefs, not the other way around.

But more importantly, the reality is that it is very hard, if not impossible, for anyone to be truly objective. Everyone brings a whole lot of previous experiences and a set of beliefs to their life. Every atheist, every Christian, every person has a million different things that have shaped their lives, their presuppositions, and the lens that they use to interpret their findings. We are not truly objective, no matter how hard we might try. The best we can do is try to be aware of the influences in our life and the worldview or beliefs we are bringing to our work and life. Any scientist, whether Christian or not, is approaching his or her work with a specific worldview and history which influences how they do their work, and in particular, how they interpret their data. Obviously, some data is more open to interpretation than other, but the point remains the same. The atheist and naturalist who has already written off the possibility of God and supernatural intervention, for whatever reason, is no less guilty of interpreting according to their worldview than the Christian. Which leads me to the next point…

The role of faith

This is a tricky one to explain. Basically, the thought or accusation is that Christians “live by faith”, while science is based on facts. What people often mean by this is that Christians don’t care about facts, or that there is nothing provable in Christianity, while science is all about proof and demonstrable facts. The idea is that one is based on belief or faith (implying lack of evidence), while the other is based on study and proof.

I want to push back against this on a few levels. First of all, as I explained in my last post, faith is based on knowledge. So I have faith in Christianity because I have studied the historical records and analyzed it from many different angles, and have come to believe (have faith) that Jesus is the Son of God. Similarly, I have studied the origins of the earth and humanity from many angles, as best as I am able, and I have come to believe (have faith) that the evidence points to the existence of God. Many other people far more intelligent than me have come to the same conclusion. So we have faith in God’s existence and his creation because of evidence, not in spite of it.

But the reality is that other people have investigated the same issues and come to a different conclusion. They have decided that the evidence is against Jesus being the Son of God and God being the creator of the world. We all look at the same evidence, and arrive at different conclusions. So why is one side (Christians) accused of being irrational or against evidence? If the evidence was so clear that (virtually) everyone agreed, then there would be no faith involved. But if significant numbers of people disagree on an issue, then both sides are exercising faith when they choose to believe something, because the evidence is not strong enough for it to be conclusive. In other words, both sides live by faith.

To expand this point, think about how we analyze the information we receive. We are bombarded by news reports and studies that talk about the advances or changes in our understanding of human origins. Depending what you read or who you listen to, the investigations point one way or another. Even the same study can be proclaimed as evidence for evolution (or creation), then ripped apart by opponents for various reasons, or turned to demonstrate the opposite of what it was originally claimed to show. Each person has to analyze the information and make a decision about what reports are valid and accurate. Since many of us don’t have the critical abilities to verify the accuracy of a scientific study, we base our choice of who to believe on any number of things: how does this match up with other studies? Do I trust the person that authored this study? Does it match up with my already decided worldview? Does the author, or his opponent, sound more credible? Not even scientists rigorously review every single study that comes out, though they are more likely to review and critique at least some of them. What I’m saying is that the study of our origins is loaded with faith choices that we all make. There is simply too much information for us to weigh, and most of it is far too technical for us to understand, so we trust (have faith in) the people that we’ve chosen to believe and listen to. And often times, the reason we’ve chosen to believe them has nothing to do with the actual evidence, and much more to do with other factors. So both sides “live by faith” – that is, everyone chooses to believe something they cannot absolutely prove, but which has some evidence to support it. And both sides think that the evidence supporting their beliefs is overwhelming. But if it was, we wouldn’t be having this debate, would we?

Just one further note related to this. At present, the “majority opinion” in the scientific community comes down on the side of evolution with no need for God. I think it’s fair to ask whether the majority opinion is always right. Many of the people who hold this view were brought up in a society with an aggressive anti-supernatural view and taught with the assumption that either God didn’t exist or that science was proving He wasn’t necessary. God was an old-fashioned belief from a primitive or uncivilized time. It is natural, given this base assumption, that most people will assume that evolution is true without even examining it closely. I am curious how many of the people raised within this belief system have ever pushed back against this assumption and tested to see if it is valid. I don’t have an answer for that, but I suspect that there are a lot of unrecognized assumptions in the beliefs of many scientists, and that these assumptions influence their work.

Conclusion

So, what do I want you to take from this? Just a few things.

1. Humility – be honest about your own scientific knowledge, even if you’re a scientific expert. When it comes to the question of origins, a lot of very smart people hold to a lot of very different views. And while many (most?) of them hold those views because they believe that’s where the evidence points, many (on both sides) probably hold them because of underlying assumptions and beliefs. And those of us who are not experts especially need to hold our scientific views loosely.
2. Faith – acknowledge where you are exercising faith, or better said, that you are choosing to believe many things that you have not personally examined closely. How many experts and opinions do you believe that you have never actually studied? How many tests have you done yourself as opposed to simply accepting the conclusions of others? What are the assumptions or motives underlying the different experiments and how they are reported and interpreted? How well do you know the character and the credibility of the people you are choosing to believe?  Why do you choose to believe them over other people that you have also not studied? I suspect that you will discover you know very little about most of these people and experiments, including the assumptions that have gone into them. The reality is, in order to do our job and live our life, we need to believe in a lot of people and things that we simply can’t study – we don’t have the time, knowledge or energy to personally validate everything. But we do need to be honest about the amount of untested faith we are demonstrating.

This post pushes us hard towards skepticism, and I don’t apologize for that. No matter where you are personally in your view regarding the origins of humanity, I think we need to examine our position closely. There is a lot of arrogance in this debate, from both sides, and the vast majority of it is misplaced. I think it is crucial for all of us, Christians and non-Christians alike, to acknowledge that there is still far more that we don’t know about the scientific details of our origins than we do know. And quite frankly, many of us waste a lot of time arguing about details that we’re not really qualified to argue about.

Over the next few posts, I will lay out where I stand on the scientific evidence, and then what I think the Bible points us to in regards to creation. My next post in particular, about the scientific evidence, is certainly not intended to answer all the questions or prove one thing or another. I will simply be explaining the items that stand out the most to me and which have led me to a stronger faith in the Bible and in Jesus, as opposed to throwing Christianity out altogether. You, of course, will have to do your own research, examine your own biases, and draw your own conclusions.

As always, feel free to drop any comments below. I won’t always respond to them in timely fashion (my life is busy like anyone else’s), but I will definitely read them. Until next time, then, God bless.

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My apologies for not having written anything for a while. Between a trip to Venezuela and my parents visiting for a couple weeks, among other things, I haven´t had a lot of extra time to write lately. Also, fair warning that this post is much longer than I had expected. For those who don’t want to read a mini-book, you can scroll down to the “Summary” at the end of the page to get the short version of what this post addresses.

Faith
Although faith is essentially the key element of Christianity (see Paul’s argument in Romans 3-5), it is also one of those slippery concepts that is hard to define and difficult to grasp. It includes concepts such as trust and belief, and is often set up as the opposite of proof and/or certainty (see the second definition according to the Oxford Dictionary).

The results of this confusion can be quite negative. Opponents of Christianity can often reject Christianity because they think they will have to shut off their brains. Christians often beat themselves up for their low level of faith, especially if a particular miracle they were seeking doesn’t occur. Honest inquiries can be shut down because “you just have to have faith.” All told, this concept, which is supposed to be a treasure of the Christian faith, becomes a stumbling block and a source of stress to many. So how can we try to grab hold of this idea of faith in a way that makes sense, but also elevates it back to it’s valued position in our lives?

I don’t claim to have all the answers to this, but hopefully some of these thoughts can help us move in the right direction. Feel free to add your own thoughts below, but in the meantime, here are two concepts to reflect on.

The Foundation of Faith is Knowledge
This sounds counterintuitive at first. We have developed the idea that faith requires a lack of certainty. When we talk about acting in faith or having faith, we tend to think of a lack of knowledge, believing in spite of evidence to the contrary, blind faith, or walking by faith – believing in something that we can’t see. I will agree to some aspects of these ideas, but far too often we turn faith into “wishful thinking” or intense emotions that we try to stir up within ourselves. But I believe that our actions of faith (stepping out into what we cannot see) are only actions of faith if they are firmly based on knowledge and certainty. If not, they are at best flights of fancy, and at worst attempts to manipulate God to do what we want Him to do.

Let’s give a practical example. I have faith in my wife. Specifically, I have faith that my wife will not abandon me for another man or have an affair. That faith allows me to go away for a few days or even weeks without worrying about our relationship or how she will act. But why do I have that faith? Simple – because I have known her for years. After nearly 15 years of marriage, I know her extremely well, and therefore I have faith in her. In fact, over those 15 years, my faith in her has grown steadily, because she has demonstrated to me time and again that she is worthy of that faith. Faith is based on knowledge.

But, some might ask, can’t that faith be shaken? Haven’t many people found out the hard way that their spouse wasn’t worthy of their faith, that they didn’t really know them? The answer is a clear and obvious yes, faith can be shaken! But the key here is not whether my faith was misplaced, but whether my knowledge was faulty. In virtually every case where faith has been shaken, it’s either because the person proved through their actions that they weren’t worthy of faith (therefore strong faith never should have developed in the first place) or because the knowledge of this person was faulty and incomplete. In many of the cases of affairs or other nasty developments in relationships, the person guilty of the offense was hiding things from the other person (or that person simply didn’t care to see the truth). So again, the foundation of faith is knowledge, and faith is shaken by lack of knowledge.

This is true for virtually anything or anyone that we have faith in – I can’t easily think of examples where this would not apply. We have faith that the sun will come up. Why? Because it always does. We have faith that the chair will hold us. Why? Because they virtually always do (and in the few cases where it doesn’t, our knowledge of that chair was incomplete or faulty!) We have faith that certain people or businesses or ventures are trustworthy because of our experience of them or our knowledge about them. Conversely, we have faith that certain people or businesses or ventures are not trustworthy, again because of what we know.

In fact, I would go so far as to argue that “blind faith” is practically non-existent. We are always making our decisions of faith based on something – our impressions, our gut feeling, our trust in an individual, etc. There may be many times where our faith is misinformed, severely lacking in knowledge, or foolish, but it’s virtually never blind. There is always some sort of knowledge that surrounds it and informs it.

So now we apply this to God. The Bible is clear that we are saved by faith; however, this does not mean that we are making a decision based on lack of awareness. At the very least, when a person decides to follow Jesus, they have a knowledge of their sinfulness (or else why are they choosing to follow him?) and who Jesus is. The level of knowledge at the beginning might be very simple, and their decision might even be based on knowing the person telling them about Jesus more than knowing God! But they are taking a step of faith based on knowledge of some sort.

Of course, as with any relationship or venture, the level of knowledge must grow for the faith to grow. In the beginning, many things can shake our faith – unanswered prayer, tough questions, disapproval from people we love and respect, or any number of challenges. And if we never grow in our knowledge of God and our relationship with God, our faith will be very weak and immature. But as we grow in our knowledge of God and in our relationship with him, our faith begins to grow. The more that we know about God and Christianity, the more our faith can grow. This has certainly been true in my life as I have come across many challenges to Christianity. The more I have studied and looked for answers, the more my faith has grown, even though I don’t have all the answers by far. And the more that we know God personally (through our study of the Bible, prayer, listening to His voice and interacting with him), the more our faith grows. Again, as I have seen God answer prayers (sometimes very specific ones in very specific ways) and speak into my life, I have grown in my faith.

Faith at work
This concept of knowledge as the basis of faith is important because faith is always shown through action, and that action usually involves a level of uncertainty.

If we return to my example of having faith in my wife, the action of faith is leaving for a stretch of time. It is certainly true that in my absence something could happen. I cannot objectively prove to someone that I can trust my wife while I’m gone. If I didn’t have faith in her, I would never feel comfortable leaving. But I do have faith in her. I am certain that I can leave for a stretch of time and sleep peacefully at night knowing that she will be faithful to me. My knowledge has led to faith, which allows me to take an action (do something!) based on that faith.

We see this time and time again in the Bible. God spoke to Abraham. Because of this revelation (knowledge) Abraham had faith in God – He had spoken to him! This faith allowed Abraham to leave his home and follow God. Later, because God had spoken to him and shown Himself faithful, Abraham was able to act again in faith by being willing to offer his son as a sacrifice. He knew that God would be faithful. “God will provide for himself the lamb for a burnt offering, my son” (Genesis 22:8), and later, “He considered that God was able even to raise him [his son, Isaac] from the dead, from which, figuratively speaking, he did receive him back” (Hebrews 11:19). Surely in both these cases trying to explain his actions or “prove” that they were valid would have been difficult. These steps of faith would have looked foolish and must still have been very difficult, but the knowledge-inspired faith allowed Abraham to take action, even without being able to see how it would work out.

We see it again in Matthew 9:20-21 where a woman suffering from bleeding knew that she just needed to touch Jesus to be healed (the text indicates certainty). She knew who Jesus was. That knowledge led to faith, which led to action. In Luke 7:1-10, we find a centurion who knew how authority worked and who Jesus was, so he told Jesus that he only needed to say the word to heal his servant, which Jesus did – and then commended him for his faith. In both these cases, objectively speaking, there was uncertainty. These two could not have proven to anyone that Jesus would do what they asked. But their knowledge gave them faith, and their faith led to action.

On the other side of things, the crowds at Jesus home town “knew” who he was (or thought they did!), and this faulty knowledge prevented Jesus from doing any miracles (Matthew 13:53-58). Although we never state it, we often assume in this passage that Jesus tried to do miracles but couldn’t. I don’t think this is an accurate assumption. Considering their reaction to him, I suspect he only did a few miracles because nobody even bothered asking him. Their lack of faith (based on faulty knowledge) prevented them from even paying attention to him. Or what about Thomas, who refused to believe in Jesus even though he had 10 of his closest friends (the other apostles) and various women telling him that they had seen Jesus, not to mention the empty tomb that he could investigate for himself. He had plenty of knowledge, but was not willing to take a step of faith based on that knowledge. No wonder Jesus chastised him for his lack of faith. Jesus wasn’t promoting blind faith from Thomas or from us, he was just expecting belief in the evidence he was given! (Here we see another reality: faith is based on knowledge, but knowledge does not always lead to faith. We have to make a decision based on the evidence we have.)

But we must be cautious with this idea of faith based on knowledge, because there are two different ways of knowing God, both of which apply faith in different ways. The first is our general knowledge of God and who He is. He is a good, yet righteous, God. He loves us. He will be with us. He is all powerful and able to do all things. We have faith in God and pray and act according to what we know about God in general. These acts include things such as sharing about Jesus with others, praying for them, and trusting God and continuing to obey in difficult times. We do indeed live by faith – our knowledge of God informs how we live and the decisions that we make.

But God is also sovereign. This means that we also need know (or at least seek to know) God’s specific will for specific situations, and what He wants in them. For example, I have had a bad back for years. I have asked for healing from God many times in regards to my back, as well as seeing various chiropractors and health professionals and taking whatever other steps I can to help it. To date, none of those prayers (or other methods) have brought healing. It is easy to ask the question, “Do I not have enough faith?” In fact, one time that someone was praying for me, they asked if I had ever prayed in faith, believing that God would heal me, and when I hesitated in my answer (I’ll get to that in a moment), they said that “this time” we would pray in faith, believing that God would heal me. I didn’t get healed.

The problem with these types of scenarios (often base around seeking miracles, although not always), is that we end up blaming ourselves or others for not having enough faith. We end up approaching faith like a feeling or a sentiment that, if we can just stir up enough of it, will make God do what we want him to do. But this seems utterly unfair and even unbiblical to me. It is true that Jesus chastised the disciples for their lack of faith a few times (see Matthew 17:19-20 and 8:26 and the parallel passages, Mark 4:40 and Luke 8:25), but these occasions seem to be more focused on their absolute lack of faith, not how intense it was on a scale of 1-10. In fact, on two separate occasions, he tells them that they only need faith the size of a mustard seed to cast a mountain or a mulberry bush into the sea (Luke 17:5-6 and Matthew 17:19-20)!

See, if we just approach faith like something we need to “muster up”, then we are forever falling short, even though we only need faith the size of a mustard seed (barely any!) But if we approach it first and foremost as faith based on our knowledge of God in general, and then based on our knowledge of what God wants in this specific situation, we have a very different view of faith. In response to the situation about my back, I pray with absolute faith that Jesus can heal me if he wants. But I have never heard him clearly saying that he wants to and plans to heal my back. In fact, I have received constant encouragement and peace from the passage in 2 Corinthians 12:7-10, where Paul pleads with God to remove his “thorn in the flesh” (whatever that was), and God tells him that His grace is sufficient. As I listen to God, it seems that His response to my request for healing is “My grace is sufficient.” I will continue to ask for healing at times, especially when it flares up, because that’s what I want and maybe He will have a different answer later. But I no longer beat myself up for a lack of faith like I used to (and see others do)!

At times a person’s faith in the general character of God may bring about healing, but would it ever overcome His specific will in a specific situation? Or put another way, can a person “work up” enough faith to move a mountain if God doesn’t want the mountain to be moved? The idea is foolish, and yet that is often how we approach faith. “If I just work up enough faith, if I just believe hard enough, then God will do what I want!!” No, He won’t. Jesus only did what the Father willed and showed him (John 4:34, 6:38, 8:28) – which, by the way, included him leaving places where people were still looking for him, and not healing absolutely everyone – so why should we think that we can do whatever we want without knowing whether it is what God wants? The assumption behind God’s promises to answer our prayers or bring healing or move mountains is that we are praying according to His will. If not, well, good luck with that!

All of this leads to a few practical steps in regards to faith.

1. Focus on knowing God. Learn about God, learn about the Bible, learn about our faith. But also know God personally. Pray, read Scripture, study God by yourself and with others, learn to listen to His voice, try different spiritual disciplines. The better you know God and the more you experience Him, the more your faith will grow.
2. Don’t panic about doubt or things that may shake your faith. They are opportunities to learn about God and to know Him more. Sometimes our knowledge is inadequate, and we need to increase it. Sometimes it is faulty, and we need to alter it. Questions and doubts do not prove a lack of faith, only a lack of knowledge. And you can grow in that!
3. Live by faith in what we know. We all have a level of knowledge about Jesus and the Word of God (if we are Christians). Living by faith is nothing more than taking our knowledge of God and acting on it. Most days this is not anything crazy like giving away all of our money or launching on a major adventure. But it shows up in a lot of little things that are still challenging – loving the difficult neighbour, forgiving someone who offends us, sharing the good news of Jesus when it comes up, telling the truth, making ethical business decisions. Each of these (and others) requires us to take what we know and act on it, usually without being able to see what will happen as a result.
4. Seek to know God’s specific will in situations. Don’t beat yourself or others up for their lack of faith, especially when you don’t see miracles happen! Seek to know what God wants in a situation (and invite others to help you discern that), then act according to what He reveals. Maybe He will give specific guidance on what He wants in a situation, and then we need to act on that. Maybe He won’t, and then we need to act wisely based on what we know of Him in general and what the situation calls for. But let’s not “wish really hard” for something and call it acting in faith.

Faith is a beautiful reality of life. We all live by faith regularly – faith in institutions, people, ideas, theories. No one is exempt, Christians least of all. But our faith isn’t just wishful thinking or an attempt to manipulate God to do our will. Our faith is firmly based on a knowledge of God – both general and personal. Let us seek to know Him more, so that we might live more and more fully in faith.

Summary
The problems that I see with faith (especially in the church) is twofold:

First, faith is seen as believing something without evidence. I think that the Bible clearly shows us that faith is believing something based on what we know. It is true that there might be gaps or we might not have perfect knowledge, but any time we show faith, it is based on what we know. It is not faith to believe something that we have no evidence for – that is wishful thinking or, at times, just plain foolishness.

Second, faith is viewed sometimes as an intense feeling that people use to try to make God do what they want him to do. We do not get what we want by trying harder to believe. Nor do we make God do stuff just by our intensity of belief. If God has revealed something to us, then we can have faith. If he has not revealed His will, then we cannot have faith in a specific action by Him.

To be practical (because this is the most common scenario where we get confused about faith), we know that God sometimes heals and sometimes doesn’t. So we can have faith that God is able to heal, but unless He has specifically showed us that His will is to heal in this specific circumstance, we cannot have faith that He will (guaranteed!) heal us (or whoever needs healing). It’s impossible to have faith in something we don’t know. I have seen countless examples of people trying to force themselves to have faith or make God heal someone by faith when there is no indication that He is willing to heal in that circumstance. The resulting devastation when they don’t receive an answer and, at times, loss of faith in God, is painful to watch and entirely unnecessary.

We grow in faith by knowing God better. The better we know Him, and the more we are able to discern His specific will in a variety of circumstances, the better we are able to stand strong in our faith, because our faith has a solid foundation and a proper perspective.

Versión Español

Every once in a while, I wake up in the morning and I’m not sure if I believe anymore.

I’m the rational sort. I like understanding things and the reasons why they are the way they are. I like having answers and solving problems. I like being able to explain things and prove my point of view. And while Christianity is rational in a lot of ways and has lots of things that can be studied and proved and examined, it ultimately comes down to faith. And I don’t like that.

Faith is hard for me. I’m not the person who will advocate so-called “blind faith” – I think that faith involves a lot more knowledge than we sometimes give it credit for, a topic I’m sure I’ll address at some point. But despite this, faith still involves taking a deliberate step into or onto or toward something that we can’t see clearly. Something we can’t prove beyond a shadow of a doubt, often to ourselves, and especially to others.

At times I look at the Christian story and simply think, “Really? I believe that?” I think about my high school intellectual friends (because most of my friends were winning the “best student” awards) and imagine them looking at me and thinking, “He seemed so smart.” Of course, since we went different directions in life, I have little to no contact with any of those friends, so it’s all in my imagination, but still, that’s what I imagine many of them would say. Although maybe they would only grant me “sort of smart” status. I can live with that.

Regardless, I find myself periodically experiencing moments of doubt about Christianity. In fact, my theme verse in life feels like it should be John 20:29, where Jesus says to Thomas, “Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” I envy Thomas because Jesus actually appeared to him – a proof that he hasn’t bestowed upon me. In my moments of doubt, that verse seems to mock me, holding up an ideal (belief without sight) that I struggle to hold firmly.

And yet, every time I experience doubt, I sit down and review my faith. I consider all the options – atheism, other religions, agnosticism, etc., and I always end up affirming once again my belief – my faith – in the Christian story. Why? What is it that I find so compelling, that keeps drawing me back even when I doubt?

There are many reasons, but here are a few of the key ones. I share them here for those of you who, like me, struggle to hold on to faith in a world that seems to want to pry it away from you, or for those of you who are considering your own faith journey. Feel free to share your thoughts and questions in the comments section (if I actually managed to get this set up right and the comments section works!) I will likely expand on each of these in the future, but for now, I’ll try to keep the explanations brief.

1. Science doesn’t explain everything – I love science, but it doesn’t seem to make any sense if God is left out of the equation. There seem to be many questions that science doesn’t answer, and gaps that don’t seem likely to be filled through natural means. Lots more that could be said about that, but I’ll leave it there for now.
2. I Love the story – The Christian story is fascinating to me: That God created this world for us, then essentially gave it to us to care for and develop, with the intent to help us through the process; that we rejected Him and have faced the consequences and failures that go with that, both personally and societally; that Jesus then showed up proclaiming the arrival of God’s kingdom and inviting us to join it and to reengage with God in building His kingdom here on earth (and eventually the fulfillment someday). I want to be part of that story, not just kick around this world trying to make myself happy, or survive, or get the most stuff.
3. Explanatory power – C.S. Lewis summed it up best when he said, “I believe in Christianity as I believe that the Sun has risen not only because I see it but because by it I see everything else.” (In Is Theology Poetry, p. 15) Christianity makes sense of everything else in the world. Created in God’s image, people are capable of tremendous good and love. Yet corrupted by sin, they are also capable of the foulest, most evil deeds imaginable, as well as everything that falls between those extremes. Add to that our desires for beauty, love, meaning and justice, which point to a reality beyond us. To me, Christianity explains the world and what I experience perfectly.
4. Archaeology and history – While there are still questions and debates that rage, for the most part the history of the Bible is solid. Places exist. Details line up. Inconsistencies and questions are solved again and again. That doesn’t mean that everything is proved beyond a shadow of a doubt, it simply means that I have many reasons to trust the Bible and what it says. This is in stark contrast to other holy books (the Book of Mormon is the most notable in this regard) and in contrast to the many efforts from those trying to prove the Bible false.
5. Experience of the supernatural – This is a tricky one, because many people from many different faiths or backgrounds have had supernatural experiences. As well, there are significant forces that can influence our experiences – our history, moods, false information or assumptions, expectations, etc. But at the same time, I cannot ignore the few experiences of the supernatural that I have had, nor am I willing to write off every story of healing, speaking in tongues, and other things that I hear about. To be skeptical of individual supernatural experiences is understandable; to write off every experience of every person as superstitious or false is ridiculous and arrogant. I refuse to let supernatural experiences (mine or others) to be my only guide in life; however, when combined with the other elements mentioned here, the experience of God and the supernatural is a significant reason for my faith.
6. The Resurrection of Jesus – This is by far the core of my faith. Paul states it pretty clearly in 1 Corinthians 15:14 and 17, “And if Christ has not been raised, then our preaching is in vain and your faith is in vain… And if Christ has not been raised, your faith is futile and you are still in your sins.” Time and time again, I come back to the resurrection of Christ. I have looked at it from countless angles, examining the reliability of the New Testament, the growth of the church, the conversion of Paul, the accounts of his death, and so on. I know the arguments for and against, and over and over again I find myself affirming the reality of the resurrection of Jesus. This is a matter of faith, I know, but it is reasoned, logical faith – even thought I still find it hard to believe at times. And if this one act of history is true, then everything else flows from that.

And so I am a man of faith. I hold to what is considered orthodox Christianity not because I was raised that way or because I am ignorant of the real world or hiding from the difficult realities of life. I hold these views because as I reflect on life and history and science and Scripture, I find the best explanation is Christianity. When I consider my options, I find nothing as fulfilling and solid as Christianity.

So when the doubts arise I examine them. I turn them over in my mind. I research the questions that they raise – sometimes finding answers, sometimes not. I ask the hard questions, at times repeatedly. And then, eventually, I let them go. Because every time my reasons for faith are stronger than my reasons for doubt.